The goodbye I am going to talk about is one I have yet to experience
but is still one I have thought about over and over. I still don’t know whether
it is a goodbye or maybe space is only needed for now. The things that make me
want to say goodbye are: first, her family hates me. They think I am the reason
for all the bed things that can or have happen to her. Yet when they talk to my
face they are the nicest people you would ever meet. The thing that I must say
now is that I hear this from her. Now I do not know if it is completely true or
not but then again why would she say it knowing how it makes me feel and what
it does to me. But I know you will say that it doesn’t matter what her parents
or family think of you but it does to me. If marriage is a possibility then
that would be my family talking about me behind my back. That is not right. The
next reason is more for me but the whole going through my phone is not cool. Not
ok. I think she has trust issues and/or she is just freaking out that she will lose
me which could be right if she continues doing that. I woke up last week and it
was too early for my phone to go off so I just laid there with my eyes closed. I
knew she was up and on a phone but it did not register with me that it could be
my phone. Well when my alarm finally went off I was shocked to see her hand
over my phone and the shocked look on her face was another give away. Then after
I look through my phone and see she was still in one of my message threads and didn’t
get the chance to exit out of it. That was the dead giveaway. Why? Why would
she do that? The next reason is that she still won’t drive and when I go hang out
with my friends she has to go because she don’t want to stay at home and yet
she still does nothing but nag at me about wanting to go home. That drives me
nuts. Then she does nothing but constantly ask me who I’m talking to on my
phone. Every time I check the time she asks me what I’m doing and it drives me
nuts. All of these things put together anger me but yet I still have the
feeling in me where I am afraid to hurt her feelings but yet the my knowledge
tells me I need to do this and try to end it. Well I tried to talk to her and at
least have her move out so I could have my space but what I got was a no. what
do I do now?
Tyler,
ReplyDeleteYou are in a pretty tough spot and I know that the two of you have already discussed this but you need to always remember to do what is best for you, especially right now. You are young, you have a lot of life and experiences ahead of you that will make you who are in the future. That person may be exactly who you are today but most likely will change and grow into someone entirely different. It sounds as if you have already made up your mind that something needs to change and though the good-bye may be hard in the beginning it will get easier as you start to experience all the new things that come with being out of High School. Just do what is best for Tyler, what you know in your heart that you want and things will all work out in the end. Remember it might be tough but tough decisions make you stronger in the end.